Journeys across the cerebral cortex reveal real connections between the present and the past, but travels back in time always see me entering the life of a different person. Surely, that person must be dead now. It's clear that some part of him was preserved and transported into the future and now occupies a small region of my consciousness. However, control is never an issue and he remains a guest doomed to roam the hallways and corridors only to poke his head out once in awhile from the shadows to remind me of various things. Particularly, of the consequences. Always with the consequences.
It's unbalanced. We can travel back in time and witness and feel, but we can never interact with the past. Yet, our past selves travel to the future all the time and have a direct influence on our present. In fact, if we're to grow as people, we require this. Some of us have found ways to close those portals, but most have to live with the connections.
As for me... lately I've been a bit obsessed with looking back through time and wondering if I didn't just arrive here in the present in some unexplainable fashion, as if there's a disconnect back there somewhere. I see that guy with the wife, the house and the neurotic dog...
But, I don't think we know each other.
Well, there's this: http://youtu.be/I1wg1DNHbNU
ReplyDeleteI seem to go there often, too. I don't believe in a stable self. I am not much that teenage twat I remember. So much the better. The notion of a changing karma, as opposed to a stable soul, led me to study Wang Yang-Ming and Housou-Buddhism in my undergrad, E.Asian Studies Minor, thanks to an introduction to it from Yukio Mishima's (of all people) 'Sea of Fertility'. Pretentious then, but happy for the perspective it gave me.
http://youtu.be/I1wg1DNHbNU
DeleteNice. When I was a kid, I couldn't stand that song/video. Of course, once I grew up a little, I came to love it.
DeleteI suppose if I still had contact with the people and places of back then, it would feel a little more like my experience. However, after years of starting things up, quitting, and starting over... well, I guess you know what I'm getting at...
Talking Heads... heard them through Speaking Tongues... in a car, somewhere on Maui, on the way to Lahaina.
DeleteThe first video in the post is worth watching (for the first 25 seconds). Excellent observations from a guy who is an avid cyclist and 'borderline Asperger's'.
"Some of us have found ways to close those portals, but most have to live with the connections." I guess my portal got blown open more than a year ago now. I have no intention of letting is close again, ever.
If you've got about a minute (that's all it takes), I'd recommend clicking on the portal above.
Done.
DeleteYeah, closing those portals freezes one in time, no matter how much they think they're moving on. That old saying "Never look back" is for the weak...
You talkin about something like this?
ReplyDeletehttp://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1209795/Reincarnated-Our-son-World-War-II-pilot-come-life.html